What Is That Exhausted Feeling in My Late 20s?
For Saturn Return Adults (28-30)
Over the past two years, I’ve been on a Pre-Saturn Return soul-search. For those of you who don’t know, your Saturn Return happens between the ages of 28-30. Some people thrive in their Saturn Returns. They have babies, get married, or travel the world. Others feel lost, unsure, and directionless.
The idea of the Saturn Return is that it initiates us into the next phase of our lives. We’ve been children, teenagers, and young adults, and now we’re moving into our legacy-building decades. Hopefully, within our pre-30 years, we’ve tried on a few different personalities and passions for size. In fact, it’s our teens and 20s where astrologers encourage the exploration of various interests. How do we know what we want if we don’t try? I personally have picked up and put down numerous projects, but now I know what paths I like and which I don’t.
Yet, even with that knowledge, I find myself leaning towards the Lost & Unsure edition of my Saturn Return. I have an amazing relationship. I live in an amazing city. I have epic friends. I’m going to Europe this summer. I work with awesome clients. So, what’s missing?
*INSERT DEPTH*
I’m not talking about the depth I feel with my friends or my parter. I’m talking about the depth I feel within myself. The intimacy of the human spirit. The watering of my own internal garden. The poetry woven into the fabric of my being that’s been traded for practicality. The intimate conversations traded between souls.
And that is the danger of the Saturn Return gone sour. That we have hushed the callings of our spirit for the illusion of a safer journey. We have listened to our parents, our communities, our social media, or our peers. We may be successful by global standards, but we feel empty. What is missing isn’t more stuff. It’s more life.
At 27, we start to catch glimpses of our future, and the consequences of continuing to pursue a boring, half-lived life. What we feel is not depression, but the pleading of our soul to make new decisions.
My soul is asking me to make some new decisions. Here are a few that come to mind:
Nature. Slowness. Creating art for the sake of art, and not to sell something. Deeper conversations. Inspiring the human heart. Traveling the world. Less overhead. More simplicity. Living to be of service. Leaving my own version of legacy.
What If I’ve Been Living Someone Else’s Agenda for Years? Am I Off Path?
First of all, there is no such thing as “off path”. You are always on path.
Example: You’ve worked in corporate America building someone else’s dreams, knowing full well you were more of an entrepreneur / artist type. You didn’t want to go to college, but your parents were adamant. By your Saturn Return, you feel a deep calling from your spirit to quit your job and embark on a new adventure your family doesn’t understand. You’ve saved enough to make the jump. You have no idea where you’re going, but you know you must do something different. You dive from your “safety net” and land in the hands of the universe. It’s a little weird for a while, but suddenly, things start to fall into place. Now, you teach younger generations to follow their passions.
Was your past a waste of time? Not at all. You wouldn’t be able to teach with the perspective that you have now if it weren’t for those experiences. Everything happens for a reason.
xx,
Sensually Alive Guide